When your, not really a swinger.......

So heres the thing. M and I never ever thought we would be "swingers". Or, im not even sure of the term I want to use. Except for, when we discussed it, it was always one of 2 things.

1. Wouldnt it be fun, to do it once?

or

2. Wouldnt it be fun, to find a couple that are like us? Not really experienced in it, want to explore, but do want to sort of keep it between us? Ie, not have to worry about other people in the mix? And condoms, and disease, and the rest that goes into it, when you start to expand how many people you play with. Your sleeping with, whoever your steady play partners are.

So what happens when you find yourself in...

3. A great relationship with an amazing couple, who have become good friends, who....want to play with other people too.

I mean, no one wants to have that conversation. Did you have fun? Did you wrap it? Were u careful? Fluids get exchanged? Did you get a medical history? Anything else I need to know?

Add in, that for right now there is some medical issues with M and I, where we can NOT risk our health at the moment, and expose ourselves to new people. even 2nd hand new people. Is that even a term? I have no idea....its such a weird place to be in mentally.

Throw in a growing Dom/sub relationship, where sharing is not exactly helping the "Dom" stay, in a "Dom" frame of mind.

Mix in a little emotion, I mean these are people you have regularly been playing with for a year now, how are you supposed to feel when new people get added on your play partners side? especially when it means you would have to stop playing with them most likely?

Was there a manual that got handed out, and we didnt get it? maybe a handout?  a PDF file? Guidelines?

I never thought I would have to deal with these things. Ever. Its a weird weird place sometimes. Does make for some doozy conversations though.

C-Man